By Heba Morgan My story of love & forgivenes
Since I was child I surrounded myself by a tough wall to prevent people from felling pathetic towards me because I was a very special case.
The story of mine started at 1992, as a normal child I got sick and
my parents drove me to a very successful doctor ,he told them that I’ve “Thalassemia” and I must transfer blood every 15 days, but you
know what happened after transfer blood for more than 20 years
till now?!! I discover that I shouldn’t have a blood transfer at all,
and this doctor identify my case as “Thalassemia” by wrong.
Now could you imagine how I lived my life since then ?!!
Absolutely you can’t ever imagine that, so let me tell all of you
what I’ve already act through this past years.
First I’ll share my story of love with you.
Of course after my family know about my disease they
give me a very special treatment ,they loved me more and
took a very good care of me ,tried so hard to make my study
so easy , prevent me from playing with the other children, they
didn’t allow me to ride a bike ,and not even allowed me to go alone
to anywhere, so I received a lot of love at this period ,but on the other
side I was scare from people’s love because I felt suspicious about their
Internal motives, I believed they loved me or may be will love me in the
future out of pity not love ,and for this reason I did all my
best to keep a distance between me and people who already
know about my disease , As for those whom have no idea
about my medical history I gave them my friendship with
no regret and without doubt because I believed that they
really love me for my true self not for my suffering, but
unfortunately I’ve spoiled everything after I failed to
distinguish between feelings of pity and feelings of love
which my first love felt towards me, so I lost him forever.
As about my story of forgiveness I wish I could write it in
a book not just article, Jackson Brown once said “Never forget the three powerful resources you always have available to you: love, prayer, and forgiveness”, but I say “You don’t need any virtue except
forgiveness, you can imagine a life without money, success or even without love, but you never imagine a life without forgiveness”.
Now let me tell you something, if one day somebody hurt you
and you decided to hate him forever, in this case you will put
him in your heart with a negative feelings and bad memories,
and even if you are the most rich, successful, and lovable
person in the world, you’ll never taste the true feeling of
satisfy and you’ll still feel as if there is something missed
and wrong in your life ,because your hatred towards this
person keep you away from your fully happiness.
So I decided to give people a space to love me as they
wish and I’ll never punish them because their motives behind
loving me aren’t sincerely, I finally admitted that I can’t control
how people say, love, and act towards me, I just can control mine
towards them ,and I promised myself that I’ll took “Forgiveness”
as a habit in my life not because I’m an angel who can’t hold a
grudge against people but because I love myself and want to
live my life without hatred.
So, my advice for all of you is to try hence forward to live
your life peacefully through taking love and forgiveness as a life style.
صفحتنا الرسمية فرندة – Farandh